I made it to day 10. Days 2-4 were really tough - I was tired, I wasn't hungry, but I had the junk clearing my system and I knew what positives were coming. Day 7 and 8 I had the energy I wanted back! The aches and pains were beginning to subside and I didn't want to sleep all the time. This is what I wanted all along!! I knew I could do it again!
Then came Day 10. I made a choice to have a bit of wine with my friend and her extended family. I didn't eat crazy things, I didn't drink a whole bottle. I had a tasting and a few sips more. And socialized and it was fabulous.
I don't think I needed a Whole30 to get me where I needed to be. Instead I needed to commit myself to planning meals, food choices, not eating or drinking out of boredom or habit. I needed to know that those choices give me the good feeling and energy I needed. I needed to know that I can do this again without going crazy - that I'm not completely out of control.
So I came home, after being out with friend...and I made a healthy dinner. And the next day, I got up and made all healthy choices and I've continued that. It isn't that I won't be compliant or that I am a failure, but instead, I learned what lesson I needed to learn.
I failed at this Whole30, but I'm not a failure.